The End Of Summer

Awuh. It seems that my summer is coming to an end... Back to school I go. Senior year is going to be lovely. I believe that I had a nice summer -- better than most atleast. I won't be on the computer as much anymore, i'll be back in the library... being a nerd as usual. :)

Thoughts on intimacy

So here I am, questioning not only my sexuality, but my sanity -- again. I think I have a loose understanding on what exactly a relationship is. I claim to be bisexual, but I often find myself pushing BOTH genders away. I seem to be up for almost anything except an actual relationship... with... -shudders- commitments. Why? Because I'm not "girlfriend material". I have my reasons:

• I tend to become bored with people extremely quick. In a way, I sort of hate people. The majority of them are whiny, unstable, idiotic creatures. I have no tolerance for stupid, clueless people. Seriously.
  
• I am not caring enough. It annoys the shit out of me when people expect me to listen to their problems and coach them through life. People always expect Rhonda to hold their hands and guide them through their lives. Its your fucking life, live it the way you want. I have my own shit to deal with.
• For guys, I cannot cook. Unless you like takeout, don't you dare ask me to cook. You just might end up homeless.
• I am socially inept. I lack self-confidence. I am a naturally angry person. I am not schizophrenic, I am just moody.
• I hate talking. Unless you have something important to say, don't you dare open your mouth. Honestly, some people should have their ability to speak revoked.
• I like to do what I want to do. I will not stop doing what I want to do just because you don't want to. Fuck that.

That pretty much sums up why I would make the shittiest girlfriend in the world. Whether my partner is male or female, the relationship just won't work. There will be no chemistry, no bonding, nothing. I believe in love, I swear I do. I just think that unless my dangerous attitude changes, I won't be "in love" anytime soon.

I am lacking a love-life and it fucking hurts. It really does. People say, "I don't need love", but I think they are either emotionless or full of shit. Without an intimate companion, I feel... empty. Its like, I could have any/everything {materialistic} and I still won't be happy if I don't have someone to share it with. I am doomed to be alone.

I don't care what anyone else says, a lot of guys are full of shit; they lie just to get what they want. I am just one of the few girls (how rare!) that can easily see through those lies. These young ladies never seem to realize that a guy will say almost WHATEVER IT TAKES to get you to open your legs. But instead of being smart (like most of you claim to be), you listen to it. Then about nine months later, the expression on your face is fucking priceless.
But you see, its not only guys. Girls are annoying, gossiping bitches. A girl will tell just about ANYTHING to boost her social-status and to gain the title of "Guru for Gossip". Its just how they are. So what am I to do? I know that EVERYONE aren't lying, snakes-in-the-grass, but it would be very hard for me to weed through each person, experiencing heart-break after heart-break. :(

In conclusion, I will likely -never- be happy. Both guys and girls piss me off.
Any ways, i'm rambling. Thats all I have to say.

This is why we can't have nice things

God I hate stupid people. I'm not racist or anything like that but, why is that black people are always being ignorant and demonstrating something utterly retarded? Just wonderin'. Look at this (prepare for lulz):